To keep myself busy I have been doing some web design, just site layouts in Adobe. I first started because we are looking to redo Underbelly but then I just kept going. I have done 25 so far and I still haven\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t picked one and I have been getting better and better. The more I do the harder the choice is going to be but I am so indecisive about it.<\/p>\n
What else have I done? I started painting again. I did 2 canvases (24×24) with acrylic paint.<\/p>\n
I drew them up in my sketch book months ago and just never got around to it. Then I had this \u00e2\u20ac\u0153I have to paint\u00e2\u20ac\u009d moment a couple of weeks ago and bought some canvases with my quickly diminishing funds. And I drew them up just before I got sick. And then on Saturday, it was the first day I was feeling well, I put on my headphones and some music, pulled out the brushed and got to work. They\u00e2\u20ac\u2122re supposed to be poppies, at least that is where the inspiration came from. I think it came out kinda great. It is already on my wall.<\/p>\n Now the rest of my time off was just really regaining my mental health. Well I kinda gained it, then lost it, and now it is back I think. But I don\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t have that tired, listless, continuously defeated feeling anymore. I feel rested and my mind is working. I know part of it has to do with getting up at 11 every day (thanks for the wake-up call Cory) and just being on my own schedule. But it also has to do with not being in the stifling, boring, soul robbing office that I was subjected to everyday. But it seems this will be and has to come to an end soon.<\/p>\n I don\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t really want to get a job. If I did I probably would have found one already. And it is not that I don\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t want to work, I actually don\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t mind working at all. It is just the office environment that is so disheartening. I was hoping I would have found some way to make money already that would keep me from going back into that environment. And then I would have a business that could grow and then one day when I do go back into an office it would be one that I own. Looking to grow buy vending machine<\/a> models from certified suppliers.<\/p>\n But for now I guess I will have to touch up the resume, iron my shirts, and polish my uncomfortable shoes. Also practice my smile and firm handshake. I am not looking forward to having to trot in and out of offices and putting on a show. But I gotta do what I gotta do.<\/p>\n![\"\"](\"https:\/\/underbellyofsunshine.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2009\/11\/Poppies.JPG\" "\\"Poppies\\"")
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