Eyes wide open

I lied.

A few weeks ago I said I would be catching up on all the activities that I partook in this summer but sadly, so far, I have only done 1 post where I should have done about 10, or at least 4, by now. I have failed you and myself. This can’t go on. But it probably will.

Now I am just getting melodramatic. I think it is because of my lack of sleep. I don’t remember if I have mentioned this before but I do get random bouts of insomnia that drive me absolutely crazy. At first I am just a bit sleepy. Then I become awake but I blame that on delirium. Now I am simply lethargic and can’t properly function.

Simple tasks take a long time to complete. Stringing together coherent sentences is surprising difficult. I stutter. And my attention span is almost non-existent. I know I am a bad speller but I made so many spelling errors in those few paragraphs that even I am astounded.

No, I am not sure what triggers it. It just appears, disrupting my life, for a little while. I don’t like it. If there was a sign of its impending arrival so I could prepare myself (and others) which would be wonderful. Or if it just left me alone all together would be even better. But no, it just shows up, leaving me to count leaves on plants in the dim lights, stare at shadows as they move across my ceiling, or constructing stories when I hear the siren of a police car, fire engine, or ambulance.

It also makes me feel so alone. It is a lot of time to spend  with your thoughts and the muted sounds of the night as the city slumbers. It is surprising how long the night can really be. It is 7-8 hours of tossing, turning, and willing yourself to sleep with little/no success. When you are asleep the night seems so short, never long enough. But when awake all you want it to do is end just so you can do something, be entertained by the world around you.

But alas, it has been just over 2 weeks without a proper night’s sleep. I am averaging (and this is a guesstimate) 2 possibly 3 hours if I am lucky. And it comes in short spurts of 15 – 20 minutes. I think I wouldn’t feel so bad if I got a solid 2 hours of uninterrupted blissful slumber.

I haven’t even really been doing anything the last 2 weeks as I haven’t really had the energy to do anything. I played board games one night, played Catan for the first time and won, making me its queen. I also played King of Tokyo a fun simple monster game. It was entertaining. The rest of the time I have either been at working trying hard to concentrate and get things done but failing miserably or absorbing all the new television that has been on and watching movies. There are a couple of movies I have to tell you about but that will come later (most likely).

Anyways, that is it from me right now. Wish me luck, a wonderful slumber,and let the sandman know where I am. Hopefully soon I will make it to Dreamland for a long restful visit.

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